Art?

It's so funny I come from a non-art background. The question is, is my mind artistic or not? I might be only artistic because of the all oddities of the way my mind works. But maybe that is what constitutes art. I feel very narcissist sitting here and trying to dissect my brain.

But one thing is for sure my life has been so a typical, especially in my exposure to art and I love it. Because that isn't that in itself an expression of art, a different approach to experiencing something even if you didn't choose that approach?

Growing up in Southern California under loving nerds. Being tossed into the music world and just considering it another part of my back yard. Now here, being dragged through the mud and my eyes being open to the full glory of life.

I just remembered I use to hate art in elementary school. So much I use to stay out loud and often. It was such a chore, those left handed scissors were the worst. But now that I think about it, it wasn't art. Cutting out patterns of leprechauns and gluing them together is not an expression of one's self and thought. But how do you get an elementary school kid to express themselves without them filling overwhelmed to do something right? How do you communicate the process whatever it may be, is just as important at the end, and taking time to just think about the process and what it means is the whole point.

Regardless, I was and still am a structured person most of the time. Even though my process through life is so chaotic. It' s because I like a reason, and I'm a hoarder of life. I might not be artistic at all really and it is only because my thought process is so different than everyone else's that it comes off as art. Art is anything that some finds awesome and cares about.

The beginning of a new beautiful life

Remember this moment because it is the first moment of the rest of your life. You are finally free and have survived something you had no idea how you were going to survive.

You sat there and thought if I could only be free, life would be so different and beautiful. And now you are free and life is so beautiful. I know it's different this time, so many things have happened over the past few months that the beauty of life has taken over and taken on a new glow. A new glow that I appreciate so much that nothing will ever be the same. I appreciate every smallest detail. The bird walking on that roof outside, the fact that I have time to sit here and look at that bird walk on that roof and enjoy all the thoughts that come to mind, makes me so happy. Just imagine how happy everything else is going to make me. I can't even fathom.

Chores don't seem like chores they seem like steps to creating an organized focused life of beauty and dreams. Not to mention you can listen to whatever music you want when you do chores, and it won't distract you. Procrastination no long makes sense, it will only lead to more wasted time towards the activity whether it be the agonization or the repercussions for acting at the last moment. But there will be no procrastination, there is nothing in life that I don't look forward to now, as long as I have the time to do it. The time to thoroughly enjoy every last drop. And when the pressure returns again, hopefully I will be more prepared from the many life lessons that I have grown so much from, especially over these past few months.

What home really is, American Beauty, my iphone, BIM!, Greenbuild, Lady Gaga, breaking things down to be organized, getting in shape can be baby steps, Art, Beauty, dressing up, costumes, fashion, Food, eating out, NATURE, the magic of being organized, the magic of not procrastinating, outlines, study habits, waking up early, staying up late, staying up all night, tea, grasshopper, twitter, google reader, friends, conversation, dinner, breakfast, meat, music, ratatat, phoenix, alcohol, people, conventions, assertive, your own business, beautiful ARCHITECTURE, cold, warm, recipes, community online reviews, subs, Phil, my baby, water, chapstick, grocery shopping, sunlight, websites, potential, marketing yourself, Los Angeles and of course Goleta, traveling, northern california, oregon, washington, australia new zealand, south america, japan, europe, creative people, house hunters international, iron chef, japanese cuisine, spices, friend you keep in touch with, net flix, hotels, experiences, people watching, society watching, riding in the car, going home for the night, going to bed, sleeping, looking forward to great events, people that know how to party, breaks in life, the cabin, snow, quiet, forest, roads to walk on, mud on shoes, cold noses, warm drinks, heaters, libraries, moving cat ears, stores, being hungry and being able to eat, working really hard for something, achieving something you have worked really hard for. Don't even get me started on all the realizations I have had and all the new things that have come to life.

And now I am off to enjoy life, and all the things I haven't been able to get around to doing.